.. #po_novel_weddingagreement of wedding weddingagreement_the_novel This morning, raka asked me somehow to accompany her for breakfast by Martha, just this breakfast this time 15 minutes earlier than usual. I thought it was a good start to fixing our relationship, but Martha said there were some serious things Raka wanted to talk to me about. A very short opening, I still can`t guess where the conversation is going, which makes me curious and anxious. Raka`s expression is cold, she hasn`t even looked back since I arrived. Neither I nor Raka, we did not touch the cutlery. I myself have no taste for food, and I`m sure Raka only fiddles with the phone to distract me. Yet I have not stopped looking at him in silence. I want to know what he thinks and what prevents him from achieving his goals immediately. Bian was trying to convince mom in different ways. Her lover is a good woman. She`s a smart woman. Tough girls.
I don`t know what drove his mother to say no. Do not blame Bian if he intends to end the marriage immediately. After everything that`s happened, I`m here. I`m still in front of the big mirror. I didn`t even get a chance to change. It`s so hard to have this pretty dress from my body. I always want to enjoy it. Enjoy the remnants of a wedding party that I hope only happens once in your life. “Yes,” I replied cautiously. Instead of the relief I received, my heart was beating faster. The feeling of vigilance started to haunt me because Raka doesn`t want to talk about serious things like this.
It makes the atmosphere more cumbersome than usual. The atmosphere had become calm again. The sound of the clock was louder because only two of us were in this room, with no meaningful conversations or movements. I then sprayed enough perfume on some parts of my body, intending to make them happy and happy for our first night. Ah, but not really. Twice, Raka almost raped me. Now that we`re married, whether she wants to touch me or not, I don`t want to take care of her anymore. Even if hatred is deeper and deeper, it is undeniable that love is always in the heart. How did you not do it? For years, I loved Raka, I survived, even though she neglected me and sometimes hurt me, and now… After our wedding, even Raka himself made an offer. I`m not going to waste this opportunity as much as I can, I`m going to fix everything and try to make Raka happy and love me again.